So I walked into the dentist this morning. My dentist asked me how my weekend was. I said “Good, I watched Captain America last night. I really liked it.” And my dentist says “Oh, my son is in that movie.” At first I thought he was joking but then I realized
Dr. Robert Evans
I looked it up
My dentist is Captain America’s dad
My doctor is JK Rowling’s husband.
JK Rowling’s husband has asked me if I am sexually active.
My friend told me about a watercolouring techinque where you mix sugar and water and after “painting” the paper with the liquid, you add the watercolour.
I wanted to try it out and took a couple of photos…
I give up arting forever
What the hell
Also, I think it’s sad that I already know how I’d kill myself and what I’d write for everyone I’m leaving behind. I just have never actually done it.
And this isn’t teen angst. I’m a twenty going on twenty-one year old college junior. They’re really just shit parents.
On another note, if my parents think that by making me feel like shit about my weight, they’re gonna magically encourage me to lose weight or something they’re very wrong. They’re just encouraging me to hate them and move out as soon as possible. They’re also encouraging me to close all ties I have to them once I do leave. So when they’re dying and have one last thing to say and that thing is to apologize for being shitty parents to me, they’re shit out of luck because I won’t be going to their death beds or funerals.
If I had one wish, I’d wish for my parents to love me for who and how I am. For them to accept me and encourage me to be myself instead of hurt me emotionally by telling me I’m too fat. I know I’m fat. I don’t need another daily reminder that I need to lose weight. Instead, I need parents who will love me unconditionally and be on my side. If you can’t do that, then why did you have me? And do you really think that by telling me I could die because I’m overweight is going to scare me? It’s not because I’m not afraid of dying. I live for that one last moment and by not accepting and loving me, you’re just pushing for that moment to happen sooner. I wish they’d know that.